Not your typical blogger

27/05/2016

life, blogger, blogging, community


When I started my old blog, I got disheartened very quickly 'cause I felt I didn't live up to the 'bloggers standards' all these crisp clean white backdrops and fresh flowers covering every surface, the outfit photos in front of random aesthetically pleasing doors and make up tutorials where they look fucking stunning before slapping it all on anyway.  I never felt I would 'fit in' to the blogging world - I'm not prim and proper; 
I'm from a council estate where they found a body chopped up inside a suitcase. 
I never had anything handed to me on a plate and I still don't now. I cant justify spending £20 on lipstick when there's one for £2 which is just as good (just doesn't have a brand attached to it) I can't take professional photographs on a white surface because chances are, it has random paint stains all over it. So now you know what I am not, lets take a look at what I 'am' (in reality I'm just a soul trapped in a slab of meat with a few pointy bits keeping it together but that's far too deep for this post)

I am a woman, I grew up on a council estate where people were sometimes afraid to walk past the shops in the dark because chavs occupied it and threw things at you (once, I had a snooker ball chucked at me because I sported skinny jeans and a bit too much eye-liner) I went to a school where the teachers walked past you in the corridor without a second glance even though you were meant to be in class. I listened to heavy metal and screamed fuck the system a lot more and a lot louder than I should have. I joined an activist group at the age of 16 and camped outside an old bank for a week before bailiffs (illegally) chucked us out. I camped on top of a hill protesting the development of a hotel - the same hotel I am visited for the 'She who dares wins' event on Friday (20th May.) My first proper boyfriend at 15 became homeless so I spent most nights sleeping in a caravan with him until we got him into a hostel. I then spent my mornings scraping up bus fare to then bring him food and to spend the day in the hostel. They're not an ideal place to hang around in at that age btw. I partied too much at 17 and lived off garlic bread and chocolate cake for a few months. I listen to hip hop, country, and jazz. I fucking hate acoustic indie shit (soz.) I have an oil painter as a boyfriend so EVERYTHING (including my undies some how) has some sort of paint on it. I'm very messy so if I do find an untouched white spot to take a ~instagram worthy~ photograph, just know there's a pile of washing up/laundry/unread books scattered not far from it.

What I'm saying is, is that this is my life.
 I'm not going to pretend that I'm this prim and proper grown up when some days I just want to eat cheese strings in bed and cry over "10 things I hate about you." I don't care if this is "too much information" or not the shit you want to read. I promised myself from day one I would be 100% truthful on this blog and not censor any of it, which means there will be swearing and really bad jokes (which I find REALLY funny btw.) And that's okay. It's okay to swear and to be messy and to have not been born with a silver spoon in your mouth. It doesn't make you ANY LESS of a person or a blogger or a writer or whatever you want to do/be. We are all equal and like I said at the start, if you wanna go too deep into it, we're all just slabs of meat with a couple of tubes and some pointy bits.

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16 comments

  1. I definitely feel like this a lot of the time. My photography isn't great, something is always out of place and I'm not always sharing the coolest gifs on Twitter. I'm so happy I read this, I definitely thought I was the only one! :) xxx

    Sarah / Sarah Smiles

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    1. You're definitely not the only one, Sarah. I think you just gotta branch off and do your own thing - I know a lot of people say that but literally I just write how it sounds in my head without fear of whether people will like it or not x

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  2. Welcome to the modern world, welcome to discovering your a misfit, welcome to slavery, welcome to that square hole, welcome living in a world of thoughts, it only gets worse, freedom is just round the corner we'll never feel but our children will. First time I've read your blog, you got me hooked girl, much love for you and Shane X

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    1. Haha, you're only as trapped as you feel, I think. Gotta play the system cause it isn't changing any time soon! Glad you're a fan Simon :) x

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  3. You go girl! I'm with you. I've been living in council housing with my mum for the past 9 years and my blog is all about living the bargain life. I swear, I drink gin and I actually don't have a heavy social life, but i'm happy and I have a small group that I love to death. and at the end of the day that's the main thing!! :) Sammy | Www.bargainbaglady.com {xx}

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    1. Good on ya Sammy! Yeah that's right, as long as you're happy it doesn't really matter xx

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  4. I think, personally, all these things that you think make you not perfect blogger material, actually give you a lot of depth as a person behind a screen. I don't know if that conveys the point I'm trying to make. I'm just really tired of people keeping up acts of being perfect? It's really refreshing to know that >normal< people blog too, not just absurdly fashionable, rich and beautiful people. Not that they shouldn't, but it's just that they can only be related to by 1% of the world population. The rest of us just go through their blogs and end up feeling bad? And they feel worse about feeling bad.

    So keep it up! Realistic posts like these that connect with your readers are beautiful :)

    Have a nice day!

    the-emo-wolverine-writes.blogspot.com

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    1. I actually read a post the other day that basically explains ~why~ we can't relate to the big bloggers any more: basically caus e they worked bloody hard and now they're living the dream with the PR sponsorships etc it makes the average person feel disconnected from them as they're not just the girl who bought Primark skirts an screamed about it on their blog any more.
      Try not to get too down on yourself when you go through bigger bloggers blogs - find your own blogging tribe and you'll be alright :) x

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  5. I'm actually crying with laughter!! So funny, so heartfelt and so TRUE! You already know that these things are what make you authentic, unique and, well 'you' but maybe you don't realise that most people will love you more for them.

    I'm so sick of bloggers who just do the perfect thing like ooooh look at me wearing Versace in Milan. Yeah they look great, but it doesn't engage me as a reader because I can't relate to that.

    Stay EXACTLY the way you are, never change and please please do my PR for me - you agreed to it in Tweet form and I'm sure that's probably legally binding, yeah?

    Love your blog, I'm a big new fan and I'm bookmarking you right now!

    Love, Rebecca xx
    - www.thestyleshake.com -

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    1. Hello little lady! Thank you for your kind words :) I wont be changing any time soon (just my clothes cause I smell lol)
      Have a good day Rebecca :) xx

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  6. Excellent post! There's a lot of pressure in blogland to portray something that isn't true. A bit of reality is refreshing... Especially when written so well.

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    1. Thank you Louise, I think it's just finding your own voice and style then rolling with that xx

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  7. GO YOU!!! this was amazing and so honest. I loved reading it, you've really inspired me to be more honest about who I am, to not give a shit what other people think of me! I've always grown up on council estates too. I'm not gonna let anything in my life define who I am, it doesn't make me any less of a blogger just because of a or b in my life. This is one of my favourite blog posts!
    Becky Shannon xx - Life-by-Becky

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    1. Thanks, Becky! Aw your words are so kind I'm so happy thank you so much! You keep doin you, girl don't let anything define you, you're a free lady - spread your wings and do fantastic things! xx

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  8. Man, this was a great post, and it came at a perfect time, too. I've had my blog for a little over the month and the more I try to find other bloggers to connect with, the more I realize "wow, I'm nothing like any of these mofos" lol. Thank you for the heartfelt and honest post - it means a lot to us newbies :)

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    1. Thank you Gina! Keep doing you, you'll deffo come out on top - glad I've helped you lovely lady xx

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