I accidentally fell off the face of the earth..

16/03/2017

I accidentally fell off the face of the earth..


I've not posted frequently in a while, since January actually, and I'm not too sure why.
I was meant to have the whole no technology month in February which went complete tits up so I didn't post anything on here or on Instagram, then March rolled around and I still haven't really posted anything.

I've not been feeling great these past few months - I started the year on a high, it was going to be MY year, and it still is, just these past few months I've felt anxious and bored and just.. not interesting at all. Don't get me wrong, these past few months have been great externally: I've been hanging out with more friends, seeing and doing more cool shit, reading more books etc. so life hasn't been boring per say, just internally, I, myself, have felt boring and like an uninteresting person even though I'm deffo not that boring. I guess that's the main reason I haven't massively posted anything: I don't think there's anything worth saying - like anything I write is just pointless because I'm a piece of trash and have nothing interesting to say. I don't know, it's a weird one.

I start work tomorrow, I decided to get a part-time 'conventional' job alongside this writing malarky cause I've missed structure and routine in my life - I also miss the social aspect of work cause if I have a bad day I'm still forced to interact with people in opposed to working from home 24/7 where I can curl up in bed and ignore everyone if things get too much. I'm super nervous about starting tomorrow, I know it'll be okay once I'm there but the thought of turning up for my first day not knowing anyone or anything is really fucking daunting so wish me luck!

I'm going to wales next week so I'm going to try and vlog and actually post it for next Sunday because believe it or not, I film every day for vlogs but because I have to transfer everything to a separate laptop to edit it etc it gets too much sometimes and I give up. So hopefully I'll have some good footage for you all in wales and then when I'm back the fair is in town so I'll deffo be going to that to eat my weight in candyfloss and to get some generic ideas for poems which will probably contain the phrase(s) "fun house" and "candyfloss kisses" cause what poem inspired by funfairs doesn't have phrases like those?!

This feels like a really negative post so I'm going to leave it there but I'm going to switch shit up a bit I think, I'll probably start posting regularly (Monday, Wednesday & Friday) in April but it won't be set themes like it has been so get ready for more fun filled content and not just 'deep' shit about the universe and stuff lol. 

*all the thumbs up emojis*

5 comments

  1. You seem to be having a super relaxing last few months! It's okay to take a break from your blog and just do you for a bit. It's exciting for you to start a new job! Like you said, it keeps you from getting in a funk if you're out with people instead of being in your house 24/7. I'm excited to read how your jobs goes! good luck xxx

    Melina | www.ivefoundwaldo.com

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  2. Good luck with your new job! And enjoy Wales 😊
    The year is still young, you can still make it yours ❤

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  3. this looks awesome :) thanks for sharing! You will like to see more fun from here.

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  4. So happy you're back! I hope your first day went okay and enjoy Wales, can't wait to see the vlog!

    Marbl☾☽Moon

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  5. I know what you mean about feeling boring. I go through phases too where I feel like I'm super lame and uninteresting. You tough it out and realize how awesome you actually are in the end though. I've had a rough start to this year too. My health and my body have been all out of whack. We'll both get a grip - I know it. ♥️

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