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Bringing balance back into my life

Bringing balance back into my life

I wrote an entire post on my April and Spring goals, added the links and pretty much finished it but I felt it was a little half-assed so I've decided to write it all again.

I hate writing goal posts, no, I hate making goals. I hate making goals because I'm never fully invested in achieving them, it's like I think " Meh, if I achieve that this month that'd be cool but if not it's cool" then I take ages to complete anything so this time around I'm going to just ramble and hope that some shit I want to achieve this month comes out.

To me, Spring is all about re-birth and growth. I have lost myself these past few years but I feel like I'm really coming into my own recently - I'm falling in love with my life and myself which is such an ethereal feeling. I'm learning to embrace every part of my being - changing the things that I can and accepting the things I can't. I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and trying new shit I think I'll enjoy.

This Spring I aim to bring balance into my life: I have a new job, I'm writing a hell of a lot more, I'm seeing my friends more and doing loads of cool new things. These things are all great and I LOVE it but I've neglected time to myself, to recharge and relax. Recharging has always been a crucial factor in my day-to-day life because people drain me SO much - I think I read somewhere that when we socialize our serotonin gets used up and we have to take the time to build that back up, I'm not sure if it's true but it makes sense. Anyway. I need to balance having a lively life and still make time for myself to actually just enjoy a brew whilst binge watching Netflix without feeling guilty about it.

I also want start to build healthy habits, I'm no stranger to exercise, I used to be the fastest sprinter in my school, I played in a football team and a Netball team when I was younger but then I started drinking and smoking and it sort of went downhill from there. Then I started doing 200 squats a day for a year and felt that was enough exercise to keep me fit but it obviously wouldn't so I started pole dancing. I love pole dancing but I stopped doing it after a while, I'm not too sure why - laziness I guess. But I went back Monday just gone and I absolutely LOVED it like don't get me wrong, the warm up is a fucking killer but boy did I feel super when I got back on the pole and shocked my muscle memory into action. I want to continue going every week and maybe go swimming in the weekdays too. 

The main thing I want to achieve though is creating and maintaining a healthy bedtime. I hate that I usually can't sleep until 2am and wake up at 6am or 7 at a push so I'm going to try my hardest to start winding down at 8pm with a brew and a book and if all goes to plan, be asleep by 9pm. I'm not sure how realistic this is but a gal can try...right?

As for goals for April, I'm loving my setup right now, I just want to continue writing in my poetry books and creating posts out of them, I want to start editing some old poems, I want to attend pub quizzes, go dine at the cat cafe and I want to keep learning and reading and growing as a beautiful human being. I want to truly embrace myself and be as open and authentic as humanly possible this month regardless of how terrifying it is.

What are your goals for April?

1 comment

  1. Such a lovely post!! ♥️ I'm so happy about findidng a new blog that I've fallen in love with